Sharri, you are so right that there is more to this life in Christ than just a book. It is about Christ living and breathing on the inside of you; Christ in you, the hope of glory. It is about a real and vital relationship with Him where you give Him your heart and He reveals His to you, in you, and through you. It is about a one on one, face to face intimacy where you get to know Him as He is and you are transformed. The hunger you are sensing for Him is His hunger for you. Just as in any excellent relationship, you want to not only know everything you can about the other person but also to experience the presence of that person in your life…not just mere words on a page or a photograph which are only shadows. Words can tell you about the person and a photograph can picture Him, but there is nothing like the face to face relationship, the substance. There is a life on the inside of you right now and you can enjoy the benefits of that life every moment because it is a life that is not changed by circumstances. You are who you are in Christ by virtue of union with Him, something that took place a long time ago (yet is present truth) when He became one with you in your sin and then raised you with Himself on the third day (Gal.2:20, Rom.6, Eph.2:2,5,6). He was the Lamb slain before the foundation of the world, He came and was manifested as the Lamb adn then became sin with your sin, and now He is the Lamb as though it had been slain standing in the midst of the throne of your heart. You received all of what He did in redemption when you received Him by believing. Your receiving Him began a journey with Him that will never end because He never ends. He lives in the power of an endless life and you are joined to Him and one Spirit with Him. You are not selfish. You are hungry. Feed on Him and believe what Father God says about one who is in Christ. Transformation comes through the renewing of your mind to what is heavenly truth that does not change. Paul said it like this, “For as much as you do eat this bread (broken body) and drink this cup (His blood), you do show the Lord’s death until He come (appears).” There is a table prepared before you in the presence of your enemies (the carnal mind and all its thoughts) and on that table is bread and wine. Feeding on the bread and wine will bring you to a revelation of what Jesus did and it will destroy your enemy (the carnal mind which is death). Psalm 27 tells you that you will not be given over to the will of your enemies (the carnal mind which is death). That’s good news. Seek the Lord; seek His face (presence). He is very, very near.