Well being around the counterculture for so long did something to your thinking that was very damaging. But, I AM glad you repented. Gosh, hope I’m not being offending.
I was lost and was found too and that’s when Jesus started washing my brain in the word of God, the living word of God. It’s the only truth and the only true way to go. Satan is the god of this world and until we get all that garbage out of our minds we are still confused and miserable to some extent, the more garbage (hasardous waste?) the more misery.
I failed of the grace of God too very much and had a long trip back to the Lord that was SOOOOO very very painful.
Welcome back, sis, and feel free to keep coming to Praize and sharing any time. We love you.