The soul is the center of our thinking, will and emotions. For lack of better words–the control tower. The mind. I think what you’re saying is that you don’t have a spirit?
Spirit means “life or breath” and the dictionary refers to it as an animating or vital principle held–to give life to physical organisms. God created us like Himself…He has a Mind, Body and Spirit.
I think what is lacking here, is a study about the very things that you want to dismiss.