You don’t work your way into heaven, your works, actions, or lack there won’t keep you out. That deals with sonship, imputation, adoption, justification, and salvation.
John 3:36 clearly states there but one type of person that the wrath of God abides on.
He that believeth the Son HATH everlasting life, he that believeth not the Son shall not see life, but the wrath of God abideth on him.
Granted, it’s not a common thing for the children of God to go around offing themselves: nor do we encourage it, support it, or recomend it. Nevertheless, damnation is for the unsaved, salvation is for the saved.
You didn’t save yourself, you can’t damn yourself.
However, you also have no need to harm yourself. Stay in the bible, renew your mind (Romans 12:1&2), Study(Timothy).
“Do you know how it feels, where ever you roam,
You still get that feeling, that your not at home
And know, Heavens real, tell me do, you know how it feels:
And how does it feel to know, your a child of the King,
Your Heavenly Father, made everything,
And how, does it feel, to know you’ve been changed,
And it feels like the whole world has, been rearanged,
And how does it feel, to know your alright
When you lay your head on you pillow each night,
And know, Heavens reals, ain’t it good, to know how it feels.”
(It will be worth it all when we see Jesus.
Life’s trials will seem so small-
When we see Christ;
One glimpse of his dear face-
all sorrow will erase,
So bravely run the race, till we see Christ)