My dear friends
I have posted quite a few prayer requests lately, thank you once again for your prayers. I am still in desperate need, things are getting worse now. I was told last week that two of our team of six ladies are going to be made redundant. I know that the redundancy pay will get me out of a little hole temporarily but long term I don’t know what the effect will be because I have back problems and am 47 years of age and cannot see myself getting another job. I have been made redundant 3 times already, it’s like it’s always hanging over my head! I will know tomorrow morning whether I am one of the two, and honestly I don’t know whether I want it or not. My finances are so bad that the pay would help out for the moment. I would love nothing more than to leave it in Gods hands but I’m to scared to !! I know that sounds strange but my faith is not good enough, I just don’t have the faith, I wish I did. Please could you pray for me, I’m at a loss now, I don’t know what to do. I don’t even know how to pray anymore, I’ve been so disappointed. It seems that I’m a magnet for problems. I’m a good person and I don’t deserve all this, so I’m very angry. I cannot go to The Lord when I’m so angry. Please help me. Thank you so much.