2005-09-29 20:27:18
Posted in Personal on Thu, Sep 29 2005 - 08:27 PM
Since that day we have gone to the entire family and many of our friends to share with them what has happened. People knew that we were having a tough time in our marriage but I don’t think they realized the magnitude. It was wonderful to see the support they offered, it’s been so helpful along the way. We never used to have company over and now...
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Posted in Personal on Tue, Sep 27 2005 - 09:40 PM
| Comments (2)So we’ve decided to refer to May 27th as The Awakening. It was amazing to watch my husband be kind of “Downloaded” with information from God. I saw joy like I hadn’t seen since we married in him. It was like I had lost him and now I had gotten him back. Despite of my happy feelings in a way I was angry at God. I had gone through so much and I was ...
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Posted in Personal on Sat, Sep 24 2005 - 09:57 PM
| Comments (6)The next post is lengthy. I hope many will bear with me. In order for this portion to be told it cannot be broken up. I pray that many will see the power of God through this story. May 27, 2005 was the nite everything changed. It’s the night God decided to step in. Believe me it was the most unexpected thing. We didn’t even see it coming. Rob...
Read More »2005-09-23 15:13:40
Posted in Personal on Fri, Sep 23 2005 - 03:13 PM
| Comment (1)Hi everyone. In the wake of all the tragedy going on the world I have no written a post in a while. I feel that people going through these hard times and great loss have way bigger problems than I certainly ever have. Another reason there has been a great lag in time is because the next portion of my blog is difficult to write. It’s the most...
Read More »2005-09-20 06:33:10
Posted in Personal on Tue, Sep 20 2005 - 06:33 AM
I had about 2 months to wait until the move would happen. Each day that it got closer I got angrier and angrier that this was happening to my life. I would often stand in the window watching the girls playing in the yard, while tears fell down my cheeks. Finally I had a house that was going to be my home for more than a year or two. I was looking...
Read More »2005-09-19 06:48:02
Posted in Personal on Mon, Sep 19 2005 - 06:48 AM
| Comments (2)The girls were being so affected by the whole thing and it was starting to really show up in Brianne’s behavior. She was confused and felt rejected. We were already separated but living in the same house. I was so frustrated with having to cook and clean and do everything for someone who wasn’t much more than a room mate. He slept all day and...
Read More »2005-09-17 07:53:14
Posted in Personal on Sat, Sep 17 2005 - 07:53 AM
| Comments (4)We soon began fighting again. I can remember being so enraged at times that I think I saw red. I would be fuming for days on end and the anger would fester. Sometimes I would wake up in the morning angry at him and didn’t even know why. I started being plagued by dreams. Often I dreamt of our fights, the scary ones at best. I was plagued by...
Read More »2005-09-16 06:36:09
Posted in Personal on Fri, Sep 16 2005 - 06:36 AM
| Comments (2)Soon after that and after many many more explosive arguments we got ourselves into counseling. We started seeing a man who was well educated and intuitive. He helped us come up with some strategies to help us at least be in the same room without ripping each others heads off. We went to him weekly for 2 months...and took a break over Christmas. ...
Read More »2005-09-15 19:15:08
Posted in Personal on Thu, Sep 15 2005 - 07:15 PM
| Comment (1)I went back to work and we got into a groove again. Slowly the old patterns began and we drifted apart. This time it was worse because now we had a basement. Literally Rob set up his own space downstairs and the girls and I were upstairs. There were times when the girls would not see him for days and he was living here!!! My goodness!!! It was...
Read More »2005-09-10 08:36:39
Posted in Personal on Sat, Sep 10 2005 - 08:36 AM
| Comment (1)In around January or February of 2004 we found out we were going to move into a house that Rob’s father had for him. Now now don’t think that we were just getting it given to us because we weren’t but we’re certainly getting it for a great deal that’s for sure. Finally I thought there was something to look forward too. Something that could change ...
Read More »2005-09-08 21:24:42
Posted in Personal on Thu, Sep 08 2005 - 09:24 PM
| Comments (2)Of course because of the fact that right now I am telling this story from my point of view you aren’t getting to see much of what was going on for Rob. What I do know is that by the end of year one and moving into year 2 of marriage our relationship had such distance and we had such large walls surrounding us keeping us separated that its amazing...
Read More »2005-09-07 15:47:23
Posted in Personal on Wed, Sep 07 2005 - 03:47 PM
| Comments (6)Have you noticed yet a pattern here? I keep saying the phrase “there was nothing I could do.” Amazing how I thought that when I was (and am) well aware that we have a heavenly father that is always willing to help. You see by this time Rob and I had already made a very fatal mistake. We had forgotten about God. Oh I prayed, but most of the time...
Read More »2005-09-05 07:37:58
Posted in Personal on Mon, Sep 05 2005 - 07:37 AM
| Comments (3)I couldn’t get over the fact that I seemed to be doing everything by myself and getting nothing in return. It probably didn’t help much that after the baby was born and Bri went back to school I was home in silence a lot of the time. If hubby was home he was sleeping til whenever he desired and coming and going as he pleased doing little else in...
Read More »2005-09-04 08:31:14
Posted in Personal on Sun, Sep 04 2005 - 08:31 AM
| Comments (8)My family growing up was very close nit. Every weekend my parents had plans with other church families and we did tons of fun things. Each day after work my dad would come home and play with us while my mom made supper. All in all it was probably about an hour of his time for both of us but it meant a lot to me. My dad and mom never fought in...
Read More »2005-09-03 08:11:28
Posted in Personal on Sat, Sep 03 2005 - 08:11 AM
| Comment (1)I was glad Rob was back home because it meant I wasn’t getting a divorce, but nothing really changed. We were still pretty much living separate lives. Bri and I….and him. Half the time I don’t even think we knew what the other person had done through out the day. Pretty crazy since we lived in the same house! As I mentioned before I was pregnant ...
Read More »2005-09-02 17:57:44
Posted in Personal on Fri, Sep 02 2005 - 05:57 PM
| Comments (2)All my life my grandmother would often say” don’t go to bed angry.” At my wedding shower I passed around a little book for people to write advice in. You’d think I would have taken it to heart and used it. Rob and I made one of the biggest mistakes in our beginning year. We went to bed almost every night angry. In Ephesians 4:26 it says …“don’t...
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