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Sat, Nov 17 2007 - 06:35 AM

Big Shoes

Here in the deep south or at least in my "neck of the woods", when someone has a lot of personal problems, we say they have "issues".  Quite a few years ago, the department I worked in seemed to have a lot more people with a lot more "issues" than the norm.  One of the ladies that worked with me would apparently go home and talk to her husband about it.  She said that one day, she was talking about one of her friends and her son asked, "Mommy, does she have "big shoes" too?"  Of course, he was referring to "issues" and I've never forgotten it.  Every since, when I am having troubles, I'll say..."You have to excuse me.  I've got 'big shoes' today!"

And, I have really got "big shoes" today!  We all have "big shoes" in varying degrees at different points and times in our life.  It sort of comes with the territory of being a Christian in a foreign land (earth versus heaven). 

I went to bed last night and awoke this morning tired of wearing "big shoes".  I've been praying about some of the same things for months and months and just when I think things might be better, something happens that just rips into my heart and makes my shoulders slump, the knot in my stomach come back and the tears fill my eyes.   While most of these "issues" that I am praying about are outside of my control, they impact me greatly.  My heart aches to see the relationships improve, the fears lifted, the hope ignited and the breakthrough started. 

I knew before I went to bed last night, that I would begin reading 1 Peter this morning.  I had seen a few versus in a book I am reading and felt it would be good for me.  And, of course, God knew that it would be!

In this (Jesus and internal inheritance) you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials.  These have come so that your faith--of greather worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire--may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.  1 Peter 1:6-7

I gulped as I read it.   God was speaking directly to me! 

I have been experiencing trials of all different kinds here lately, but even if they continue for years to come, in the grand scheme of eternity they really are but for a little while.   But, the scripture says that these trials have come so that my faith may be proved to be genuine and that it will result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus is revealed in it all!  If we say we have faith when things are going great, it may be that we think we have faith because there is nothing to test it.  Trials allow us to show Jesus that we mean it!  That sort of makes it all seem worth it-- I'll go through some tough times if that is a way I can prove to Jesus that I love Him and do have faith.

Look closely at the scripture.... Faith-of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire.  At first, I thought "which perishes even though refined by fire" was referring to the gold.  But then, I saw a different message there.  As we go through the many, many "trials" of life, our Faith grows.  We get to points where our faith is very strong-- refined.  Yet, even though we have grown our faith and are at a point that we feel stronger spiritually than ever before, our faith can temporarily "perish" because we are human.  Even if it perishes but just for a moment, it can happen.  Just that fleeting moment of ....."I'm just so tired of fighting and praying"--is a moment of weakened faith.   And that was my experience on yesterday. 

Praise the Lord that as a Christian with His help, we can pull ourselves together and strap on our armour of faith and start the battle and prayer war again.

Though you have not seen Him, you love Him and even though you do not see Him now, you believe in Him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy for you are receiving the goal of your faith--salvation of your souls.  1 Peter 1: 8-9

My sister said this recently and I agree with her especially in this verse, salvation of your souls doesn't just mean true salvation/going to heaven.  I think it also means a saving of our "spirit and hope".  I believe the above verses in addition to talking about the true salvation is describing that feeling of "joy" you get when you do restore your faith and express your praise and love for Jesus-- in spite of the trials.  And of course that partly comes from knowing that we are in a temporary war for which we already know the ending.  Jesus died.  We win.   It is all the stuff that we have to deal with in life that sometimes causes us to forget that.  So, we have to keep fighting and praying and pulling ourselves out of those times when our faith temporarily perishes. 

PRepare your minds for ACTION; be SELF-CONTROLLED, SET YOUR HOPE FULLY on the GRACE to be given to you when Jesus Christ is revealed.  As obedient children, do not comform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance.  But just as He who called you is holdy, so be holy in all you do.  For it is written, "Be holy, because I am holy".  (1 Peter 1: 13-15)

He tells us what to do when we feel our faith slipping through our fingers.  We are to maintain our self-control, take action (which usually means pray, pray, pray!) and keep our hope in Jesus remembering it is by HIs grace that we are saved and by His grace that the battle is already won!  And just have to be holy--obedient to God--daily walking in Him.

I am quite grateful for Peter this morning!  His words certainly inspired me.  I'll admit to having that little nagging feeling of...... but can you hold on when everyone wakes up, the hustle and bustle begins and the battle kicks into high gear?   My prayer is that at least for today, I can keep my faith strong and surrender to Him by the minute.   

Dear Precious Jesus,

I am a little tired and weary but how can I complain when you willingly bore my sin upon the cross and suffered more than we can even begin to imagine.  My desire is to completely surrender to you each and every day--sometimes minute by minute. I pray that You will help me keep You as the center of my focus--my Rock Eternal, my Living Stone.  Give me words to speak if I need to speak them.  Hold my tongue when I should keep quiet.  Grant me peace amidst the storm but help me get out of the boat if that is what You desire in the given moment.  I just so need your guidance and love today and everyday.  Wearing my own "big shoes" and the "big shoes" of others has worn me down.  Renew my spirit Lord and help me to hold on and fight another day--the good fight of faith.  I love you Lord and I am holding on with gripped fingers--clinging to the hope that all things work to the good for those who love You.  Thank you for bringing me to the perfect message this morning.   You are truly All-Knowing, All-Powerful and All-Loving.   Amen

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About: I am a married, working mother with 2 children a daughter age 17 and a son age 14. I have a passion for writing and feel led to work with pre-teen girls. I blog mostly about my spiritual journey as I seek God's perfect will for my life.

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