Blind Curves and Beautiful Surroundings
My son plays football and we have All-Star games in North Georgia this weekend. Yesterday, as we were driving up to the games, I was in awe of the beauty of the changing leaves on the trees. They were so gorgeous! I saw the deepest burgundies and reds, bright orange, deep orange, bright yellow and a variety of colors in between. I thought about God sitting in Heaven as He planned it--thinking about it like a true artist does--imagining how it would look all grouped together inter-twined with the evergreens.
I would have loved to take pictures, however, my husband drives a little faster than I would like him too! And the road we were traveling was VERY curvy. I found that the imaginery brakes on the passenger's side of the car just don't work! I told him he was scaring me and he obliviously asked, "Why?".
"Because of the curves! You cannot see what is on the other side of the curves and you are driving too fast!" I said, with my fingers gripping the door handle and my feet planted firmly on my imaginery brakes. My husband just laughed and said, "It's fine. I've got it under control" and kept driving at the same speed.
Since my husband was in control of the car, all I could do was pray!, look at the beautiful scenery and trust there was nothing around each curve that was cause us to have an accident.
As I was praying just a few moments ago about what to write about today the above memory from yesterday popped into my head along with the reminder that our spiritual and life journey is sometimes like my trip on yesterday. .....
Things are moving too fast. We barely have time to absorb the beauty/lessons/problems or people around us. We cannot see around the next curve so we don't know what is coming next! So, we plant our feet in an effort to slow life down but it doesn't work. We may even say to God, whoa! Slow down! I haven't figured this out yet, but chances are that doesn't work either. And we cannot stand not knowing what is around the next curve in the road. We are afraid we will round the corner too quick and not be ready for whatever is waiting there.
It reminded me that I have been praying and praying lately about my "next step". I want to do God's Will and so I keep praying the same prayer..."Okay, God. What is next? What do you want me to do now? Where is this all going? Where are you taking me? Give me a "road sign" so I can see where we are going then I'll know how to prepare. I'll be ready."
My prayer is not a bad one. I am, afterall, seeking God's Will and want to make so sure that I don't miss even one part of it. It does, however, demonstrate a certain degree of fear and a certain degree of wanting to be in control. Sometimes I want to drive a little faster. Sometimes I want to slow way down. Sometimes what I am seeing now scares me so much that I am deeply afraid of what is coming around the next curve so I am going in fully braced with only one eye open.
But regardless of all of that, I have to remember that just as my husband was in control of our travel time yesterday, God is in control of my life-travel and my spiritual journey. He knows exactly what He wants me to do next. He knows exactly what is around the corner. He knows what I'll need to do and how I'll react to it. He will let me know when it is time for me to know. For the moment, He wants me to keep doing what I am doing and just be ready.
Sometimes, I try to take the steering wheel out of God's hands and make a sharp turn to the right. I need to pull over and take a breather! I want to look at the road map and get my composure before we get to the next stop. And like my husband, God probably laughs and says, "It's fine, Brandi. I've got it under control."
God is an Artist with attention to detail and He is a Father that pays attention to little things. He notices things that we wouldn't think that He pays attention too. He sees our reactions. He sees how we treat people--even strangers we pass in the mall. He knows our thoughts--which can be quite scary at times! He is in the "car" with us, driving us through life. THe roadmap is in his Head. He knows exactly where we are going--even when we grab the wheel and force a detour! He uses that detour to teach us something and eventually gets us back on the main road.
I struggle with not knowing what is coming up next. I am eager to do God's will and I admit I get frustrated when I don't know what it is He wants me to do next. I'm afraid that I am just not "hearing" it for some reason due to my own fault. I get excited and want to be prepared. I want to see a landscape that is beautiful and peaceful around the next curve where I know exactly what I am supposed to do. But, despite my desires and my fears, deep down I know that God does have it "all under control" and I'll be okay if:
I let the One True Driver drive:
Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all of your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
I remember that everything is fine. God has it under control:
I will never fail you. I will never forsake you. (Hebrews 13:5)
I remember that He really does have the ultimate Road Map:
In Him we were also chosen having been predestined according to the plan of Him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of His will. In order that we, who hope in Christ, might be for the praise of His glory. (Ephesians 1:11)
By the way, we won last night! So, we get to play again today. My son made an awesome interception--a turning point in the game. He made several great tackles. He got hurt twice but God showed him favor and it was nothing serious. In fact, none of the boys were seriously hurt and everyone showed great sportsmanship. We suspect that today, we will be Facing the Giants! If you have not seen that movie--it is very inspirational! We love it! My son has watched it many, many times.
My prayer: Lord, I am a terrible passenger sometimes. I don't always trust the driver. Yet, I seldom want to drive. I've been in a physical car accident before as a passenger and that is scary. I've also been in a few wrecks in my life and those are scary too! Help me to just relax and enjoy the scenery. Help me to remember that it doesn't really matter what comes around the next curve. You already know it is there and You'll make sure I am ready for it--good or bad. And whatever it is, has a part in Your will for my life. Help me to deal with the trials I face now and know that they are just one curve in the road. Somewhere down the road, breakthrough will come. You know just where and when. Thank you for the beautiful scenery from yesterday and thank you that I get to see it all again today. Thank you for protecting the boys as they played football. Please do the same today. Thank you for loving us, for dying for us and for everything that you do for us. Amen
About: I am a married, working mother with 2 children a daughter age 17 and a son age 14. I have a passion for writing and feel led to work with pre-teen girls. I blog mostly about my spiritual journey as I seek God's perfect will for my life.Back to Blog | Add to Buddy List
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