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Fri, Aug 26 2005 - 11:30 AM

Love Hurts

I don't know how to begin this and I'm not sure why I'm putting it here.  I guess maybe I want to write out my thoughts yet again.  I have been dating this guy for 2 years.  We were going to get married, but we postponed it.  By "we" I mean, he wanted more time and I didn't disagree that it would be a good idea.  The past few weeks have been extremely rough on our relationship and we've had some huge arguments about things.  In the end I decided that even if I did love him I would be big enough to let him go.  I figured it would be for the best, and so I broke up with him.  He did not agree and spent what I feel was a lot of time trying to convince me that we could work through things, that we could still be together.  I talked it over with some married friends of mine (they are my parents age) and then went home to pray about things and center myself and seek guidance.  I still love him and wanted to be with him, but I was afraid we'd just end up hurting each other again.  I realized I was using my "issues" as  a crutch and that we could work things out.  I went to tell him all this and he decided he didn't want me--to date me that is.  The roles are completely reversed now I'm telling him what he told me only a week ago and he's repeating my words.  He said he's considering things and in the meantime I'm really hurting.  I wish I could go back and repair things, and I *think* he wishes that too.  The other part thinks that maybe all this was good and we can finally work towards being better for ourselves and one another.  He promised to consider and so I sort of see things in limbo while I give him time to think.  Part of me would love to go bug him about things and tell him my side again, but I know I need to let him be to think alone.  I think I'm just going to ramble on off now...

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Godspecialproject - 13 years ago

Sometimes just standing still is the best thing you can do. It's also the hardest! Listen for God's voice and DON'T MOVE

rob in ireland - 13 years ago

Hey Erin dont fret you guys are young yet and have lots of time to sort out your heads now is a great time and the right time to do it. It looks to me as if there is a teeny weeny bit of gamesmanhip and womansmanship going on at the minute. You are right that a hug will solve a lot. But try both of you praying and you will see a huge change . It moves mountains ,