Like yourself, I am seeking to follow the Lamb wherever He goes. Also like yourself, I didn't realize it would be this hard. The demands of family, friends and finances can be a real deal breaker sometimes. But we press on. We don't give in to the taunting of the Accuser who would have us believe that we are a hopless case. Our enemy would have us believe that we have strayed too far from our Father's hand, as if His arm is too short to save. Because when Jesus takes my case before God as my advocate (attorney) He always wins!
I remember struggling as a young Christian to find my way and I remember that at times the only comfort I found was in the truth of my Heavenly Father's own words which state that if I repent of my sin "He is faithful and just to forgive our (my) sin and cleanse us (me) from all unrighteousness." This is truth that we can literally live by! So that is what I have purposed to do, to live (breath, eat, sleep) by this truth. From hour to hour and day to day I seek to live and move and have my being in this truth: that my Father is my Salvation!
Let us walk this path together. Any and all who put their trust in Christ can walk together even if we don't agree on all points of doctrine. Some might say that is an ignorant position to take concerning false doctrine or false teachers, in fact, don't the scriptures say to expose and avoid the false? They do, but here is how Jesus did it; He let Judas follow Him around and watch His ministry and even hold the money bags! Not once do we see Jesus pointing His finger at Judas and calling him out as a false disciple, not once. At the dining table Jesus only identified that Satan would use Judas as they dipped their hands in the same bowl, but Jesus let His relationship with Judas take the course that God had ordained trusting in the ultimate wisdom of His Father. It was the Father who told Jesus to call Judas to follow Him, so that is what Jesus did. Judas hung himself as a message to us that if we are purposely promoting that which is false we will ultimately hang ourselves by the same.
So, let's walk together toward the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. Wouldn't it be better to hear "well done, good and faithful servant" than to hear, "depart from me, I never knew you"? It would. Isn't there something inside of you that longs to have God put you to use for His glory? There is, so let us begin.