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Wed, Apr 18 2012 - 08:03 PM

Years Have Gone By

Eric has been in prison a long time.  He is my son -- much loved. The years have been a learning time for me. Here is a blog from the past.

Shake the Shame

This brand new blog is written by a mom who has walked a personal journey that has taken her through depression, shame, guilt and feelings of failure.  I've walked through it and you can too.  Please come back. We'll talk about all this and more.

This post was written in June of 2007. 2007 was not the beginning. No! My son had been in prison several years by 2007, but by 2007, I had reached a point where I no longer experienced those feelings of depression, shame and failure.  By 2007, I realized that the choices my child made had put him in prison -- I had not. The choices my son made did not bring about the depression, shame, built and feelings of failure that I experienced. Those choices had been made by me.

Now it is 2012.  I visited my son recently.  He is doing well. He says he is living for the Lord God, whom he calls Yeshua.  Today I believe him.  He has a parole hearing coming up and it is possible that he will be a free man within the next several months.

This free mom is grateful for freedom, too.  God the one who frees us. May you walk in freedome today.

 

Adele

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RevDell - 1 year ago

RevDell here: Thank you for being open and sharing as you have. Bless you, dear one.

praizeop2 - 5 years ago

I am praying for you and your son. You are right, our children's choices are their choices. Could I have been a better mother? You bet. But a dear friend told me once, "When my daughter came home from school and I was lying on my bed, passed out drunk, I was doing the best I could on that day." That statement freed me up. The mistakes were mine, but I did the best I could. Would I change things if I could go back? Of course I would. But at that time, I was doing the best I could. He makes all things new in His time... not ours.
Blessings ~ Sarah

revsuz - 5 years ago

God bless you, Adele. As a pastor and a friend to parents whose children were or are incarcerated, I have been through this often. The sadness is always overshadowed by the guilt. Praise God that you are one of the blessed ones who, 1. have Jesus in your life, and 2. have been able to put things into perspective.

I hope you are soon reunited with your son on the outside and that his changed life through Christ will be strong enough to keep him out.

Hugs,

RevSuz


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