Letting Go and Letting God!
Letting Go and Letting God!
When I was 17 years old I had a brother who was 16 another brother 10 and my lovely twin sisters who were 8 yrs old.
It took me years to let go of something that I completely regret, My brother who was 16 and I was 17 so we were twins people say but I dk just really close in age in 05 I accepted the Lord has my savior I talked to my youth leader and for some reason the night I got baptized before I did my best friend at the time asked why I was getting baptized my response was I dont know. I got baptized anyway then six months later my first born brother and I got into an arguement and I told him something that I regreted for the longest time of my life I thought I killed him! On Nov 13 my youth leader at the time came to me and told me my sixteen year old brother got into a car accident, I prayed from that min til 1 am in the morning crying out to the Lord asking him to do his will asking for a miracle to happen, Nov 14 at 1 am they pulled the plug on my little brother who was an amazing person in my life.
I was one depressed sucidle teen I hated school, I went to counsaling and dealt with all kinds of counsalors I attempted to end my life but was unsuccessful and my dad took me to the er. my siblings kept asking me questions that i never asked at ten or eight years old they asked me why does God send angles to us? and How does God speak to us? which none of those questions I could anwser. One night I tried to attempt sucide thinking no one loved me no one cared and no one would show up at my funural and how i was going to perish anyway cause I killed my brother so I thought.
the Lord walks into my moms kitchen and here was the conversation we had
God: Danielle what are you doing?
Me: nothing Lord just going to kill myself
God: Put the knife down
Me; why? No one loves me no one would care if I died
God: I love you I sent my son to die for you!
that just broke my heart now its been six yrs since my brother died this fall in nov will be 7 and yes I may cry and yes I may be broken but I will be healed I couldnt let go til sat because i was told a lie my cousin told me that if I let go of my brother then Ill forget him and thats not what I wanted to do so every time someone told me to let go i said I cant
then I came to praize. this is where all the healing began!
I told Sarah all that has happened and I came in crying and depressed and everything but I was cautious what to say and how to say it and how to act. I told her my life story and how I felt so guilty because what I told my brother the day before the accident and how I felt it was my fault. She prayed with me and I felt different but still felt like it was my fault in fact I didnt know how to feel I was numb and tired and in some way free.
then I told her that Last sat I rekindled the fire within me and that truely set me free now I am on Fire for God I want to be able to pray and worship in Spirit and in truth because sat I had to let go and Let God! God has control over my life and was waiting patiently for me to say ok Lord I give you what I have I give you my guilt and shame for the freedom you promised me. I told her I was so thirsty for God so hungry for his Word I didnt know where to begin. and she gave me proverbs to read one thing about her if she gives u a book of the bible to read you better read it cause if u say no i didnt read it shell give you more to read trust me! Now I am reading Ruth Psalms and Proverbs and I have never felt so free in my life I am praying in my language that God gave me. I pray for this site and sometimes i cry when i come here not because of sadness but because of victory!
Danielle-God is my Judge
Nicole-VICTORY TO THE PEOPLE
wow what a blessed name I have, I have victory and I thank God for allowing me to change. so the next time something tragic or horrible goes wrong in your life thank the Lord praise his mighty name and pray pray pray and read read read! most importantly Let Go and Let God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you wont forget what happened but you will be free from the bondage and chains
whom the Son sets free is free indeed!
About: I have 2 brothers 2 sisters. I would want to become a youth pastor. I have taught sunday school once, I have cerbral palsy. I like to pray for others. I write poems and songs and stories and plays. I am very energetic outgoing and just all around fun haha i love telling jokes and when i fall well i get back up again. God is just that good and if he didnt have a sense of humor well he wouldnt make me lolBack to Blog | Add to Buddy List