Trapped and Waiting
Have you ever been eager to get out of a place or a situation to the point that you almost make yourself miserable? You can't think about anything else. You lose all focus except for your desire to "get out". You pray and pray for the situation to change or for the doors to open to the new place and it just doesn't seem to happen. I surely have felt that way many times!
Sometimes when we feel that way, we know that God has given us the desire so we get even more confused when it doesn't happen in what we think is a reasonable time. It gets frustrating. If we are very honest, we might even question God...."Why are you leaving me here when I am so unhappy?" or "Why did you give me a new dream and then leave me stranded here?"
We begin to feel trapped. Prisoners of our own circumstances, our own thoughts and our own seemingly impossible, but Godly dreams. It can begin to feel like we are a part of a hostile take-over and we are prisoners of war! We fight harder and harder with prayer and our actions. Still, we only seem to get more and more tired but with no results. Yet, deep down, we know God is with us. We just aren't quite sure what He is doing.
Praise be to the Lord, for He showed His wonderful love to me when I was in a "beseiged city" (our place or situation in which we feel trapped). In my alarm I said, "I am cut off from your sight! Yet you heard my cry for mercy when I called to you for help". Be strong and take hear all of you who hope in the Lord. (Psalm 31: 21-22, 24)
I recently heard a sermon in which the preacher said..."Most Christians don't have a problem with faith. We have a problem with Faith that has to WAIT!" We want to get out of our beseiged city right away and we wrestle a little with God about that. But, we have to remember how very much God loves us. He knows ALL things. He knows what is best for us and He knows exactly why we are in the place or situation that we are in. Although it is difficult, we should not wish to leave until He is ready for us too.
.....If Your Presence does not go with us, do not bring us up from here! (Exodus 33:15)
I believe that very, very often God gives us that feeling of restlessness. He gives us our desire to move on or to change our situation. He wants us to fight for our Godly dreams and never give up. He also wants us to involve Him in the decisions and the timing! We have to listen to His voice and know that if it is truly His will, He will open the doors and release us from our beseiged city! Nothing can hold God back when He decides to do something!
So, our job is to keep fighting for what we believe God has in store for us. We must continually pray and converse with God listening with a peaceful spirit for what He tells us to do. If we allow it, He will give us peace that no one can understand even in our circumstances or places that we don't want to be in.
It isn't like He snaps HIs fingers and suddenly we are completely joyful to be in our situation and linger there as long as He would like us to. It is more like a daily (or for me sometimes minute-to-minute) surrender on our part. We have to consciously and intentionally decide to do it God's way and decide that we trust Him and that we can hang on a little longer if that is what He wants.
Satan hates it when we do that! He attacks ferociously in our thoughts when we find a moment of peace. He makes us remember all the bad stuff. He makes us doubt all the breakthroughs. He makes us aware of how tired we are and of how long we have waited. He wants us to be uncomfortable and restless. For when we are constantly miserable, we can't listen to God. We crowd out His voice with our own selfish thoughts and impatience. It truly is a battle that we are fighting.
We just have to work at continually trusting and abiding in Christ to keep our "peace".
Into Your hands I commit my spirit, redeem me, O Lord, the God of Truth. I will be glad and rejoice in your love, for you saw my affliction and knew the anguish of my soul. (Psalm 31: 5, 7)
On this Thanksgiving Day, I thank God for His love, mercy and grace. I am thankful that He knows the reasons for all of the situations we find ourselves in. I am thankful that He doesn't free the "beseiged city" a moment before just the right time--even though that is painful to say. I am thankful for the amazing sacrafice that He made for me when He died and rose again. I wish to abide in Him and do exactly what He wants me to do, when He wants me to do it.
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time, we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. (Galatians 6:9)
Prayer: Jesus, Thank You for dying so that I might live. Surely, no one understands the feeling of being trapped by your circumstances or a desire to be in a different place better than You. Yet, unlike me, you didn't get impatient and you trusted Your Heavenly Father to take care of it all when the time was right. You prayed hard, you anguished and you still asked that it not be Your will but God's will that be done. That is the model prayer for us. Despite how very hard it may be, we must trust in Your Perfect Will and submit to it. If we do, the outcome will be beyond our wildest dreams! Help me to stay surrendered to You. Help me to keep You in my thoughts at all times no matter what I am doing. Guide me as I fight to get out of my "beseiged city". Help me never to give up but at the same time, help me to trust You and Your timing. I love You Lord and I want to do it Your way but I need to feel Your presence to stay at peace. Help me to draw continually closer to You so that You will draw closer to me. In Your Most Precious Name, I pray. Amen
About: I am a married, working mother with 2 children a daughter age 17 and a son age 14. I have a passion for writing and feel led to work with pre-teen girls. I blog mostly about my spiritual journey as I seek God's perfect will for my life.Back to Blog | Add to Buddy List
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