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April Love
 Author/Public Speaker/Survivor
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I decided that I would go ahead and do a new author bio for this book because there's been a lot of changes in my life in the past three years since my first book was released. I've been through some really tough times, which resulted in a lot of self-discovery and a lot of growth and healing, and "Gift of the Morning" reflects those changes. |
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"Gift of the Morning" was not a "planned" book. I had no idea I was going to write this book. I was in therapy working on a lot of the deeper abuse issues and the dissociative disorder I have where I basically retreat into worlds in my mind. My therapist (Jane) asked me to describe what it was like in my mind, and I was speechless. I could not describe it for her, and this really bothered me.
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I ended up going home with that question burning inside of me. I ended up back in my closet and began to write.
Maybe here I ought to insert a little about my closet. It's a big walk-in closet where I have converted a part of it as a retreat for me. I have a loveseat back there where I do all of my devotion and writing. It's a safe place for me--a place of my own away from everyone. In actuality, it's a way of bringing the worlds in my mind to reality--a luxury I was unable to have as a child and am only now beginning to learn as an adult. |
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So I began to write about the baby in the box and the dark sleep and the Father's kingdom--reflections of who I am inside but am unable to share or communicate with this world except through my writings. All of my life I have felt locked up in a box, silent and afraid, but I have a voice now, and it was the love of God that gave me this voice.
I can't explain what happened to me as a baby or child, but it deeply affected me. I thought I was alone all those years, but I was wrong. My Heavenly Father was there loving me throughout it all. In the eyes of this world, I have a disability, but it is through this disability that I learned what the love of God is, and I rejoice in that love. I am dancing inside to my King, my Father, my Abba. ***** Just a little added note. "Gift of the Morning" opened up a huge new world for me. In the winter of 2005, I found out that I have high functioning autism in addition to the psychological disorders. A lot of what therapists thought was a dissociative disorder turned out to be autism. I truly feel free and at peace with who I am. I am the way my Father created me to be. What more could I ask for? |
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Unless the LORD had been my help, my soul had almost dwelt in silence. Psalm 94:17 |
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